Babies

I stopped work to take care of my baby. I always think that mummy should take care of own baby IF POSSIBLE.. so, that's what i'm doing. I stopped work and am a full time mummy and wife.

Stay home mum has been such a discontinued model. I've not been getting too much encouragement for doing this.. One Aunty of mine even commented, huh ?!!?! isn't it soooooo wasteful !!! (so sayang lah) why ah why ah ? and she started talking about this .. dunno who else she told, trying to convince everyone it's such a waste that i'm no longer working. I mean, I respect mothers who desire work. Not all women are destined to be home maker. each has different purpose in life. different role to play. There are mothers who wish to stay home but couldn't. You've all my respect.. But i always hear people saying, isn't it so bored to stay at home? oh gosh , my baby turns me crazy, ... blah blah blah ... and i also heard of parents who do not want to breastfeed because it's too tiring, or too tough... not because they do not have milk ! hmm... (I hope i wouldn't offend anyone here, it's just my penny worth of thought)

I always think we should look at what it gets at the end.. So, after working your whole life.. and fostered your kids out and get others to take care of your kids, what do you get? You might be mighty rich, but you might not. Do you have a very good relationship with your kids after 20 years? I haven't seen that happens.. (there are some exceptions of course, I don't mean all, I do know some parents really love their baby and baby loves their parents) Are your kids growing up well? physically perhaps, but may be not mentally and spiritually.. how about your relationship with your husband? No, not for me to judge.. but i just came to the conclusion that for me, it's not worth it, I want to take care of my baby on my own! I didn't know how, i didn't have the experience, I was not good in it. But i will try my best. and I'm still learning..

I try to take very good care of her, but these are what happened...

Yesterday morning , i woke up at 7:30am to feed Grace, then i changed her diaper at 8am.. Shockingly, I found out that we forgot to change her diaper since 7pm in the evening due to some misunderstanding ! Gosh .. poor baby.. wearing the same piece of diaper for 13 hours !!!

Once, i tried to clean her buttock using just cotton and water.. and she ended up swollen a little that got my heart ache for while..

Now, she has broken skin behind knees, which, one Pediatrician said is eczema, and got us to applied hydrocortisone , the other pediatrician said it's not eczema but caused by sweat. After applying the same medicine for 3 weeks, it didn't get better. Today we brought her to the skin specialist, and he said it's due to the yeast (Candida Albicans).. so we got to apply something else

Can you imagine? I try to take very good care of her, be very careful, yet I've caused her this and that( or contributed)... Can you imagine what will happen to her if i foster her out or let the maid to take care of her? How lucky can you be to get a kind and patient maid to take care of your house and to take care of your baby, especially when the baby cries, would she still love her and be very patient with her? I've heard of a mother saying, she almost thrown her daughter into the bin for her baby was crying whole night long! that's her own flesh and blood! and what will happen if it is not your own ? Two days ago, i saw a clip, which made me feel really sorry for the babies, and comforted with my own decision. The First 2 months was tough.. but now i'm getting used to the life of being a home maker. Thank God for having mercy with me and listen to our prayers, giving me strength, knowledge, and patience. I hope i could do better in this. May God gives me more strength and wisdom to be a good mother and wife. I'll not spoil her, I'd just love her, love the asset that God gave and let me take care of ..


Attached with the clips, I sincerely hope this will not happen to you nor your baby. May God bless all babies..